Today I did very badly on my exam. It isn’t that the test was hard, but I did not prepare well. It’s my own fault and this series of mistakes I’ve made may cause a huge damper on my plans and opportunities. So I’m going to use one of my self esteem posts to admit I really f*cked up. And this is the last time I will ever let this happen. I need to work on efficiency, motivation, and discipline. I’m not going to dwell on this; dwelling on past mistakes doesn’t help, I’m going to use this experience and I’m going to remember how terrible it feels to come up short when you know you can do so much better.
STARTING TODAY! I felt terrible so I didn’t want to go to the gym, but I forced myself to go, and I thought about using a low weight to clean and then jerk, but I made myself go ten lbs heavier and it was a great work out.
I’m setting a reminder for a year from today to remind myself how important this is to me.
Self Esteem #123:
I made a great cup of coffee :3 I like it with a good spoonful of sugar and a liberal splash of half and half. A long time ago I had no clue how to make coffee or use a coffee maker. Recently, I realized you could just wrap from coffee ground in a filter and put it in a cup of hot water, like how you’d brew tea. Which makes me think that I can use a coffee maker to brew tea with loose tea leaves. Unless there are pervasive coffee traces in the coffee maker. To be determined.
Applied for a job at my CrossFit box :-D I’d love to have another job, especially somewhere close to home and a place I’m already comfortable and familiar with. I think it’d be a great place to work and expose CrossFit to new people! But who knows, I might not get the job because some staff might think I’m pretty shy and I’m not super in shape so I might not represent the ideal CrossFit image. No sense in not trying!
I went to my crossfit box :-) Sometimes I have to make sure I acknowledge my small victories :-P Today was rowing and thrusters, which means cleaning the barbell from the floor up to your shoulders, the squatting and then thrusting the barbell up above your head and locking your arms. I did 35 lbs, which I think is ok, but definitely looking forward to increasing the weight and thus improving strength :-) I still struggle with pullups and lifting my sister’s bike and putting it in the car :-P
I’m glad I went and got a good work out, I’ve been sleeping through a lot of work outs bc of the cold weather so I have to work on breaking that habit. Cheers to another month of WOD’s :-)
Thruster demonstration video here :-) (She’s buff!)
I did some fun stuff for my sister’s birthday. I’ve never been good with gifts and birthday stuff, but I really wanted to do something fun for my sister’s 21st because she made my 21st birthday cute :-) So I gave her one of my baby morning glory plants—-which had just started curling around sticks toward the sky!
And then I tricked her and brought her this sad failed chocolate zucchini bread that I was super bummed I messed up:
But then I surprised her with a nice cake and her friends:
I’m really glad I did something nice for her, she does so many nice things for me :-)
Self esteem #119:
A long time ago, but I forgot to mention it, I stuck with the concert orchestra and performed in the concert. I’m glad I did it and it was a great experience picking up my viola again and listening to music I wouldnt have otherwise learned about.
Self esteem #118:
Even though I don’t have my sewing machine, I felt compelled to make something, so I hand sewed a new pair of underwear! I felt weird about posting a picture of underwear but I’m proud of making it so I have a picture of one the seams :-P I know it’s ridiculous, BUT THEY’RE COMFY! I used a pair that I liked and made a pattern from it and then I used a stretchy Lycra fabric so I wouldn’t need to use elastic. They’re far from perfect but I really like them :-)
I submitted my application for a second bachelor’s at CSULB. Honestly, I’m pretty scared I won’t get in, but I know I definitely won’t get in if I don’t try. I don’t think I’ll be too crushed if I don’t, because I know I have a lot of things working against me, but who knows! We’ll see :-)
Self Esteem #116:
I finally got around to hiking the park near my house and it was pretty :-) but unfortunately not deserted.
I also tried to go running at a track, but they were all locked :<
I took action and did something about my faulty sewing machine. It’s been having problems ever since I bought it in March. I took it to a service center and they’re going to fix it for free bc of the warranty.
However, I learned that the brand/model I have isn’t the best quality and it has issues sewing denim or stretch fabric :< The lady working there told me newer Singer machines aren’t that great and come in for repair all the time :-P So I learned that it’s important to talk to experts when it comes to buying sewing machine.
I’m seriously thinking of investing in a better machine and working on my sewing skills. Maybe I can open an Etsy shop! There are so many cute things I want to make and maybe if I get good, other people will want them too!
Don’t buy this machine guys :<
I did something really fun last weekend, I did a charity 5k scavenger hunt! One of the coaches at my Crossfit gym organized it to raise money for a middle school track team and it was a lot of fun. I felt a lot more fit than I have in the past and it was fun to take goofy photos running around with two new friends through downtown Los Angeles. Here are a couple fun photos :-)
here’s a bike rack by Grand Central Market
Here’s Angels Flight where train cars have broken off and people have died, so we tried to reenact it
Here’s a huge fountain at Grand Ave Park and we’re meditating :-)
I was really scared to touch their roots, but my morning glory’s leaves looked crowded so i transplanted them. The roots were tangled together so I accidentally ripped them and I felt so bad :< But hopefully it works out and if it doesn’t, I’ll know for next time. I found some great youtube videos here describing how to do it and they were really helpful.
Here they are! Starting from the left, two are morning glory, two are zucchini, and the last one is strawberries :-)
close ups! morning glory—-
If you have any gardening stories/experience, I’d love to hear from you!
I planted some seeds a few weeks ago AND THEY SPROUTED! THEY LOOK BEAUTIFUL! I don’t think I’ve ever gotten anything to sprout before!
Here’s my strawberry sprout (sorry it’s tiny and blurry):
Two zucchini sprouts:
And my morning glory! I’m going to have to move one sprout into a different pot because they’re growing so big!:
I’m nervous to touch them and uproot one of the sprouts, so if anyone has any tips or info on how to do it, I’d really appreciate it if you’d leave a comment! Thanks!
I got a $20 tip! O.o For my job, I do fun science activities with kids after school, but this weekend I did short party presentations! You know when you have fun educational assemblies in elementary school? I did a shorter smaller scale version for 15 or so kids for 45 minutes. AND THEN I GOT TIPPED! That’s like almost a whole week’s worth of groceries!
I felt like—->
Forgot to post this, but this was about a month ago :-)
I had a great time with an old friend today. It felt like old times where we used to talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and I think a lot of what made it good is that I’ve been busy and being busy gives me things to talk about and talking to my old friend made me remember good times and it made me happy that we were on the same page about a lot of things, mostly that we’re both so happy with various projects and goals that we each have. One being CrossFit! So I had a great evening with an old friend :-)