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How to Get Better at Crossfit:

Tip #8: Show up no matter what. If you aren’t in the mood here’s what you do: 1. walk to your car and drive to the Box. 2. Figure the rest out later.

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I went to my crossfit box :-) Sometimes I have to make sure I acknowledge my small victories :-P Today was rowing and thrusters, which means cleaning the barbell from the floor up to your shoulders, the squatting and then thrusting the barbell up above your head and locking your arms. I did 35 lbs, which I think is ok, but definitely looking forward to increasing the weight and thus improving strength :-) I still struggle with pullups and lifting my sister’s bike and putting it in the car :-P 

I’m glad I went and got a good work out, I’ve been sleeping through a lot of work outs bc of the cold weather so I have to work on breaking that habit. Cheers to another month of WOD’s :-)

Thruster demonstration video here :-) (She’s buff!)

So after two months of CrossFit, I know I’m getting stronger; I see it in how much more weight I use for workouts (from 15 lbs to 35 lbs!) , but I don’t really see it in the mirror. However, in the past, my back never had that little indentation along the spine as a result of capable muscles; Now I have it! I’ve been able to feel it recently but it was only today, when my bathroom mirrors were angled in such a way that I looked to the side and I saw the indentation that I had never seen in my back before. This is the indentation I’m talking about:

I still have a long way to go before I’m satisfied with the strength and fitness I want to be capable of, but I’m proud of my progress.

So today I died of embarrassment. Still cringing about what happened at Crossfit today. And it isn’t funny embarrassing, it’s sad embarrassing, so if you’re not in the mood for that, I suggest you skip this post. I’m embarrassed that some of my real life friends see my Tumblr but I dunno where else to talk about this than Tumblr.

So it all started yesterday, when I saw an old friend for lunch. She used to be a huge part of my life; we used to see each other at least every other day but only twice this month. She was telling me about her life and fun things she does now and fun people she sees, and I’m glad that she’s doing well, but it made me feel really bad about myself. I felt like I wasn’t cool enough anymore to be invited to the things she does now, she only sees me privately every once in a while.

She never said anything hurtful, but I just thought that we were good enough friends that she would want to see me more often and invite me to things, but after yesterday it feels like that isn’t the case. Maybe I could make more effort to see her, but I dunno if I really want to anymore. I find myself comparing myself to her and feeling bad about how I’m not cool like her, or accomplished like her, etc, and well, I really don’t need more reasons for low self esteem.

So anyway, I was still feeling bad today, applying to scholarships, and trying to be productive, but then I thought about how behind I am in my goal in comparison to other people my age, and remembered the whole thing about yesterday, so I was feeling pretty crappy today.

So I decided I needed to go the gym and work on strength and fitness. The workout was 50, then 40, then 30, 20, 10 burpees (where you throw your chest to the ground, then stand up again and jump and clap your hands) and 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 squats. I didnt think I would be able to finish and I dont like going too fast, bc thats what made me dizzy my first day of Crossfit so I did my bestand by the time everyone finished, I was barely half way through. 

So everyone was hanging out and one very nice girl came over and was cheering me on, but I was very embarrassed that I was the only one still going and that I was only half way through, reflecting how physically unfit I am compared to everyone else, and I was so embarrassed that someone was being really nice but it made me feel like everyone could see how inferior I was and I remembered all the stuff I was trying to forget, and I ended up crying at Crossfit, and I just wanted to disappear. I’m so embarrassed and ashamed for crying in front of complete strangers, and of all places, the gym.

The coach came over and was nice, but that was even more embarrassing;  she was like are you ok? and I was like yea i’m ok, i’m ok, trying so hard to stop crying and breathe normally. She walked away for a bit and I calmed down a bit and then she came back, and I was still dying of embarrassment, trying to become invisible and waiting for everybody to leave so that I didnt have to make eye contact with anyone.

She came back and asked me again if I was ok, and I told her I was fine, and she asked me what was wrong. I was still trying to calm down but still breathing hard and definitely not eloquent and I didn’t want to explain that I had a bad day or whatever, which caused my crying, so I just said that I was embarrassed that I was still working when everyone else was done. And she was trying to be nice, and was like, that’s ok, the community isn’t there to make you feel bad, but support you. I didn’t answer, I was still trying to breathe normally and shrink into a corner to be less conspicuous. 

She said something like next time, I could talk to the coach so I can be left alone, or I could just tell whoever tries to be my cheerleader that I’d appreciate it if they didn’t. That made me feel even more embarrassed and stupid; I felt like some over sensitive little girl who needed special accommodations and instruction on how to interact with people. So I was just like yeah ok, thanks, and she left and I faced the wall until I heard that most everyone had gone, and I speedwalked out of there as fast as I could, keeping my head bowed and eyes on the floor so that hopefully no one would try to talk to me. 

I’m just so embarrassed that that happened at the box; I’m already a shy new person there, and now people might remember me as that girl who cried during a workout. I feel bad that the girl who was cheering me on might think I hate her or something, or might think that she made me cry, or something. I’m not sure if I’ll see her again, or be able to recognize her because I didn’t have my glasses on. I’m going to do my best to avoid the coach, I’m just so embarrassed, this is the most embarrassed I’ve been since first grade. 

I not sure what I should do, who I should talk to, or what I should say. I would say that the root of all this trouble is low self esteem, but I’ve been trying really hard to improve my self esteem. I think that I should stay away from my “friend;” being with friends should make you feel happy, not sad. And I guess I should work out more often so that I become more fit and finish work outs faster and not have everyone watching me again. But honestly, I feel like such a failure in various aspects of my life so I try really hard to focus on improvements I’ve made. It was just this weekend that made me think about where I am in comparison with everyone else. 

I’m just so embarrassed for being so weak and letting people see. I fail a lot and I reprimand myself plenty for it; I don’t need other people to see my failures. I guess posting this would contradict what I just said, but I feel more comfortable being anonymous and telling the internet about this rather than speaking face to face with a friend in real life. 

I’m writing this paragraph after having a good sandwich: I guess the positive is I feel a lot calmer and I’m gonna try to work out every other day in order to make progress faster. Maybe I’ll skip the days that have timed workouts. Also, I complete one month of regular exercising and my arms have never felt stronger or firmer in my life :-)

Self Esteem #94: I finished my Crossfit beginner’s class! Now I can take the regular Crossfit classes! Here’s a photo :-D

So excited to get into great shape and strength! It’s only been two weeks, but I do feel a lot better about my fitness. I really recommend it to everyone to try just one class of Crossfit! It’s free!

Self Esteem #80:

Today I did something I’ve meaning to do for a long time: Try a gym! But not any gym! I wanted something very intense; at first I considered Krav Maga, but when I checked it out, it seemed like you had to pay for classes, and then pay for apparel, and then for belt tests and equipment, and I don’t really have enough money for that :<

But now that I’ve settled into my new place, I really wanted to get back into fitness so I yelped gyms near my new place and I found a Crossfit gym with absolutely glowing reviews so I had to check it out. What really intrigued me was this sense of community that everyone raved about. I had only been looking for something athletic, but this sense of community made it seem even more awesome. I emailed them and signed up for a series of trial classes and went today!

Looked kinda like this:

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It was pretty great for the most part. The coach was super down to earth and encouraging and it seems like a really great community; other random people said hi to us trial people and they wished us luck and one lady cheered us on :-)

The only down side was that I couldn’t finish the work out :< I went too fast on the work out and then got really light headed and dizzy. The coach was really encouraging and told me I can do it and next time to go more slowly. I’m embarrassed, but I guess everybody has to start somewhere and this is something I really want so I’m going back to the next class in the trial series and prove to myself that I can do this. It was encouraging to read a coach’s profile on the gym’s website that said that he couldn’t finish the workout the first time he tried Crossfit :-) 

Anyway, I’m glad I tried and I can’t wait to see the progress I’m going to make :-)

Self Esteem #67: Went running for the first time in a long time; sprinted the straights and jogged the curves instead of jogging the whole time. Only did two laps, but it’s better than nothing :-) It made me feel better after a particularly bad day in calc. 

I’ve challenged myself to write one positive thing about myself everyday for one year.

Self Esteem #47: A while ago, I was struggling to do more than 2 or 3 legit push ups where I keep my body straight and lower myself so that I almost brush my nose against the ground and raise myself back up WITHOUT BENDING MY BACK. I thought it would take forever to be able to do it better. But I can see progress! Now I can do about 6 or 7 while keeping good form and it makes me feel strong :-D

Also, squats are my new best friends

I’ve challenged myself to write one positive thing about myself everyday for one year.

Self Esteem #38: Well, after a weekend (or maybe a week…or two) of junk food, I realized I’ve been slacking in my healthier habits. Been eating too much junk food and not really exercising, so today I started exercising again. I did an intense 20 mins of the first day of Tumblr Gym’s Bikini Burn Workout and it felt good :-D (note to self, document it on fitocracy) My goal isn’t to look good like the workout’s name may imply, but rather, I want to feel good, fit, and healthy :-D

When I first started the workout, I was like, this is too easy, but then I did the burpees and I was like UGGGHHH! I’m really glad I did it and I aim to do all thirty days :-D Now I need to limit my sugar again! Wheeeooo!

Apparently there’s a difference between reverse and forward lunges.

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I’ve challenged myself to write one positive thing about myself everyday for at least a year.

Yesterday, for volunteer training, I hiked 2.75 miles at the C&O Canal National Park for three hours in 37 degree weather (felt like 29 degrees with wind chill) and immensely enjoyed  it. I can do anything.

My favorite part was climbing this traverse: 

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I’ve challenged myself to write one positive thing about myself everyday for at least a year.

Self-Esteem #7: About a year ago, I made a conscious effort to eat better and exercise more than I have in my life. I’ve hit a lot rough patches, didn’t exercise as much as I should have, made unhealthy eating decisions, etc.

But, yesterday I weighed myself and at first, I couldn’t believe that I was at least 10 lbs lighter than I was a year ago. I was worried because I thought it was mostly a loss of muscle, rather than fat, since I couldn’t see an improvement in fitness or endurance. 

Later, I told my mom about it and she had taken my measurements a year ago so we compared; I had lost two inches from my waistline and two inches from my thigh circumference. Then I compared photos of me from a year ago and from now, and they proved that I have significantly reduced my body fat since last year. 

I’m glad I’ve made progress and here’s to an even leaner and stronger body in 2013.

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fitvillains:

MAXED OUT CIRCUIT: 500 REPS OF BODYWEIGHT BRUTALITY
This was my workout today! It’s a simple, 4 move, circuit that will get your heart rate up and challenge your entire body. No equipment required, but you need to dig deep to finish all 5 rounds. I was DRIPPING with sweat and was dying by round 3!
If you’re doing this with me today, here’s a tip: Slow down and make each rep count. It’s easy to rush through workouts, trying to get the fastest time possible, but I want you to focus more on form than speed. It’s great to whip through a tough section quickly, but you’ll get more bang for your buck by using a full range of motion (getting low, going deep, extending your arms) than from blasting through. With each rep, try to make it as ‘perfect’ as you can: if you need a mini-break halfway through, take one! Keep going when you’ve caught your breath and don’t stop until you’re done.
Maxed Out Circuit: 5 Rounds of…
40 Sprinter Lunge Hop Ups
30 Side Plank Oblique Rotations
20 Drop Squat &amp; Tuck
10 Single Leg Pushups
Novice/Beginner (low impact, no jumping)
20 Step Back Lunges
20 Modified Side Plank Rotations (keep bottom leg bent and on the floor as you rotate OR come on all fours as you alternate arms. You can also try this with a straight body, but elevated: your hand rests on a couch or chair instead of the floor).
20 Squat &amp; Kick (sink down into a squat, and kick forward as you stand. Repeat switching sides).
10 Pushups (any modification: from the knees, against a wall, etc).
Advanced
40 Weighted Lunge Hop Ups (keep dumbbells by your sides as you perform the lunge and hop up).
30 Side Plank Flys (see description &amp; pic here)
20 Drop Squat &amp; Tuck
10 Elevated Single Leg Pushups (elevate feet on a chair, bench, medicine ball or stability ball to make it harder)
Give it a try and let me know how you did! xo

I tried the beginner/novice version, but I was a bit intimidated by the slide plank rotations, so instead I did bicycle crunches and I only did 3 and a half rounds. I enjoyed it and I felt like my legs were really going to benefit from this workout! Next time I&#8217;ll do all 5 rounds, do the side plank rotations, and really focus on the form of my pushups. Thanks for posting this workout! fitvillains:

MAXED OUT CIRCUIT: 500 REPS OF BODYWEIGHT BRUTALITY
This was my workout today! It’s a simple, 4 move, circuit that will get your heart rate up and challenge your entire body. No equipment required, but you need to dig deep to finish all 5 rounds. I was DRIPPING with sweat and was dying by round 3!
If you’re doing this with me today, here’s a tip: Slow down and make each rep count. It’s easy to rush through workouts, trying to get the fastest time possible, but I want you to focus more on form than speed. It’s great to whip through a tough section quickly, but you’ll get more bang for your buck by using a full range of motion (getting low, going deep, extending your arms) than from blasting through. With each rep, try to make it as ‘perfect’ as you can: if you need a mini-break halfway through, take one! Keep going when you’ve caught your breath and don’t stop until you’re done.
Maxed Out Circuit: 5 Rounds of…
40 Sprinter Lunge Hop Ups
30 Side Plank Oblique Rotations
20 Drop Squat &amp; Tuck
10 Single Leg Pushups
Novice/Beginner (low impact, no jumping)
20 Step Back Lunges
20 Modified Side Plank Rotations (keep bottom leg bent and on the floor as you rotate OR come on all fours as you alternate arms. You can also try this with a straight body, but elevated: your hand rests on a couch or chair instead of the floor).
20 Squat &amp; Kick (sink down into a squat, and kick forward as you stand. Repeat switching sides).
10 Pushups (any modification: from the knees, against a wall, etc).
Advanced
40 Weighted Lunge Hop Ups (keep dumbbells by your sides as you perform the lunge and hop up).
30 Side Plank Flys (see description &amp; pic here)
20 Drop Squat &amp; Tuck
10 Elevated Single Leg Pushups (elevate feet on a chair, bench, medicine ball or stability ball to make it harder)
Give it a try and let me know how you did! xo

I tried the beginner/novice version, but I was a bit intimidated by the slide plank rotations, so instead I did bicycle crunches and I only did 3 and a half rounds. I enjoyed it and I felt like my legs were really going to benefit from this workout! Next time I&#8217;ll do all 5 rounds, do the side plank rotations, and really focus on the form of my pushups. Thanks for posting this workout!

fitvillains:

MAXED OUT CIRCUIT: 500 REPS OF BODYWEIGHT BRUTALITY

This was my workout today! It’s a simple, 4 move, circuit that will get your heart rate up and challenge your entire body. No equipment required, but you need to dig deep to finish all 5 rounds. I was DRIPPING with sweat and was dying by round 3!

If you’re doing this with me today, here’s a tip: Slow down and make each rep count. It’s easy to rush through workouts, trying to get the fastest time possible, but I want you to focus more on form than speed. It’s great to whip through a tough section quickly, but you’ll get more bang for your buck by using a full range of motion (getting low, going deep, extending your arms) than from blasting through. With each rep, try to make it as ‘perfect’ as you can: if you need a mini-break halfway through, take one! Keep going when you’ve caught your breath and don’t stop until you’re done.

Maxed Out Circuit: 5 Rounds of…

  • 40 Sprinter Lunge Hop Ups
  • 30 Side Plank Oblique Rotations
  • 20 Drop Squat & Tuck
  • 10 Single Leg Pushups

Novice/Beginner (low impact, no jumping)

  • 20 Step Back Lunges
  • 20 Modified Side Plank Rotations (keep bottom leg bent and on the floor as you rotate OR come on all fours as you alternate arms. You can also try this with a straight body, but elevated: your hand rests on a couch or chair instead of the floor).
  • 20 Squat & Kick (sink down into a squat, and kick forward as you stand. Repeat switching sides).
  • 10 Pushups (any modification: from the knees, against a wall, etc).

Advanced

  • 40 Weighted Lunge Hop Ups (keep dumbbells by your sides as you perform the lunge and hop up).
  • 30 Side Plank Flys (see description & pic here)
  • 20 Drop Squat & Tuck
  • 10 Elevated Single Leg Pushups (elevate feet on a chair, bench, medicine ball or stability ball to make it harder)

Give it a try and let me know how you did! xo

I tried the beginner/novice version, but I was a bit intimidated by the slide plank rotations, so instead I did bicycle crunches and I only did 3 and a half rounds. I enjoyed it and I felt like my legs were really going to benefit from this workout! Next time I’ll do all 5 rounds, do the side plank rotations, and really focus on the form of my pushups. Thanks for posting this workout!